Catalan
justice forced me to commit during 22 days in psychiatric center
because I have hyperacusis from 2010 and they thought that I could had been
developed some mental problem during this time, although my psychological reports
from 2010 until 2014 only say that I have only a adjustment disorder.
This
is the history:
My
family denounced me because they thought (think) that hypercusis have
relation with a mental problem or I had a mental problem.
Its
true that the hyperacusis is difficult for me (find a job, find a
quite place for live..) but before that they denounced me I
request
them help for go to live in a quite place and request them stop say
to me that I had a mental problem.
They
don't undertand and don't accept the hypercusis, I can't do more.
Then a judge, medical
forense
came my house
(rent) studied me and then they denegated my involuntary ingres in a
psychiatric center
but judge by letter said that I had to go to
visit a
psicologist . I had visited voluntary some psycologist before.. about 10-15 visits. These specialists said to me that I had a adaptative trastorn...(nothing of importance) and it was normal because my feeling was a consuence of my hyperacusis and said to me that I had to try maintain my friend using facebook.
I
was visited for a psicologist and I wanted changed specialist and
good to visit a psychologist in a reference hospital (psiquiatric
centrer) for only speak about my hiperacusys, go and
return the same day, but when I arrived to the hospital and I
couldn't talk to any psychologist , when I put my feets there
they closed me without any explication in a unit of the
psiquiatric center during 22 days. The fourth day in the unit
another judge said to me that I had a involuntary ingress
because had hyperacusis from
2010 and for
them it was too much time I could have desenvolupated some
mental problem during this time. He said me that the intencion was
discart any mental problem.
In
the unit of the psychiatric centre, first day and last day, the
nurses asked me if I was conscious of my mental problem. WHAT?!
(Before
this experience I was making a “normal
live”: sport, libray, study online, I live alone in my rent flat,
go shopping... like now.)
There,
inside the unit, confined in a very small unit (my room, corridor,
garden of 70m2 border wall 7m, I “lived" during 22 days
suffered every day.
During
all this time I couldn't contact with nothing only I have the
possibility of be visited for my family, the people
who denounced me,
and I prefered not. UNTIL 16 or 17 day not allowed me go out the
unit, concretly in a
cafetery shop infront of the unit, during
30 min and I looked for desperately some smartphone for
send emails
S.O.S to my friends. I haven't phone and didn't bring my
agend with me because I didn't know that happened me
this event.
In
the unit they gave me 3 antipytocics and pills with sedant effect
every day but I only consumed 3 first days and 4 last days. The
last days because Im
feeling bad and I think Im becoming crazy for this cruel experience.
All time I explained to the psychiatrist and the employees of the
center that I need go out
the
unit for take oxygen because I started take claustrophoby but
they said me that I coudn't go out and this
sensation
probably I had before to entry the unit.
18,19
day I could go out 30 min in the morning and 30 min afternon,
and 20,21 and 22 days 1 hour morning 1
hour afternoon.
In 22 day cames to the unit to rescued a person which I had contacted
via email before and I
could go out.
The
first day in the unit I remembered that the second hour I tried to
escape because I didn't undertand nothing, nobody gave me any
explication, nobody explain me that they closed me in a unit.
Whey
I tried to escape they catched
me and tie my hands and my feets and put a injection and I was tie
during a
time, not remembered how many time. At any time I against
resistance I only said: I have come to hospital for
speak
with a psycologist I have come here voluntarily.
I
know that someone can think that I have mental problems, is normal,
but I haven't. I only have hypercusis and a big incomprensive
family and a bad doctors around me. Doctors the same hospital which
didn't diagnosed me during a lot of years my hyperacusis and them don't accept my criticize
for this and decided not visited to me more.
My mother works in the same hospital and she is usig her influence with them and this professionals force to me reconcile with my family . The relation with my family have been bad during a lot of time. Now this relation is broken.
My mother works in the same hospital and she is usig her influence with them and this professionals force to me reconcile with my family . The relation with my family have been bad during a lot of time. Now this relation is broken.
In
2010 I took hyperacusis and Im struggle alone during 4,5 years
because my family don't understant me
and the relation with them
haven't be good.
This
experience which I have told only is bad for me. Inside the unit I
defense attorney but was denegated
me.
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I
wrote two emails which I explained my situation to anhother
person before and after the
event (April 2014)
event (April 2014)
1) Mail
in December 2013:
Hi....again,
my family are using the spanish justice because wants
bring to me a psiquiatric center, its crazy!!
I'm
having volunteer psicològic treatement and decline drugs, my
brain is not bad, at the moment.
My
family think that I have a mental problem because I decline
drugs and psychiatrist. Also they think that I
can't life independent in my House inside the city,
buy, Im a little alone... but I CAN at the moment but obviouslydon't
like.
They
wanted recuperated to me because always I have evoid my family
because are crazy!
I
haven't mental problem! Really! I don't want go in a
psiquiàtric center but I don't know what will judge
decided in a few days. My family have solicitated my income
in a psiquiàtric center. The judge in a few days
will have a first sentence. But if he say not... my family will try
again. I have broke with a few days ago them but they
wanted recuperated me.
I
try to look for a telejob and start a new life in a
mountain but at the moment nothing..
Uow...
this is increïble. Im sorry but I feel that this stories is good for
listen.
2) Mail
in october 2014:
I wrote you a few moth ago explain my situation and ...................... I would like continuing explain my history, history.
Finally I spoke with my general practitioner and also my psychiatrist (who never I had visited, I had visited one psychiatrist only 2 days max) for visited voluntarily a psychiatric center because my family insisted a lot that I had a mental problem and I thought there I could find a psychologist which know what is the hypercusis and how help me using only words. My general practitioner give me day an hour visit (go and return same day).
I was good when I arrived there, my live was and is “normal”: I'm study online, make sport, I looking a telework.. but hyperacusis drive me lonely. Inclusive I was happy for go there because I though that finally perhaps I could speak with a good psychologist, but when I arrived there I was visited for a psiquiatristic ans she said to me: you have hyperacusis from 2010, is too much time Sergi!
Without any explication they closed me in the acute unite of the center during 22 days. The unit was a room, hall and a garden (100m2). In 524 hours (22 days) I only had 8-9 hours for go out the unit (cafeteria or center garden in the same building). Consequently I took claustrophobia.
First day of my recruitment the nurses said to me: “Sergi, are you conscious that you have a mental probleml?” “If you was good you don't be here.” and when I took claustrophobia they said: “oh, nobody have claustrophobia here probably you had”.
Last year I was visited for a psychologist during a year but only diagnosticated me adaptative trastorn.
In the unit gave me 3 antipshicotic pills for day with sedative effect. I consumed this only the first 3 days and 5 last days. The last because I'm was becoming “crazy” and only the first 3 days because I know that the 4-5 day have came a judge in the unit and I needed have clear headed. I asked for a lawyer but he judge said not.
It has been the worse experience of my live. I think the sentiment who I felt can be similar than someone feel when is condemn to prison without motive. The first day I tried run away but they catched, I didn't make resistance but they tied my hands and foods, more injection.
I have contract a lawyer and I hope he help me in this experience.
When I go out the center I ask for my diagnostic, they said that I have somatic type delusional disorder. Pse.. I haven't nothing!
I'm trying to built a association about hyperacusis people affected in Catalonia

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